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Apr. 21st, 2007 @ 05:15 pm Self harm image book.
Hey, my name is Jo. I am 24 and I live in Cambridge UK

I'm doing a fine arts degree, BA(Hons) Photography, at Anglia Ruskin University. I'm in my first year but I have worked as a photographer previously.

For my major project this year I am studying self harm. Its something I have worked with before and personal experience of.

I hope that the work is tasteful, that it never glorifies SI, yet at the same time offers people who dont understand it a chance to see how it affects people.

I decided that I didnt simply want the photos up on a wall as they were too private. So I am putting together a book. It wont be published, I will only make a handful of copys. It will be A4/5 size and each page will have 2 or 3 images on. Along with that will be a very small amount of text that's either commentory from me, statistics or quotes taken from the small questionair I have asked my models to fill in.

The models I have used so far are my close friends, people who I love and would always want to protect. I would never exploit anyone and I will include text in the book that describes just how greatful I am for the models co-operation.

I am telling you all about the book as I would like to ask if anyone would like to take part? I want to show all aspects of self harm, not just scars or tears. There is so much more to it. The smiles you have to put on for thoes arond you, the depression you feel, the guilt, the eating distress, the arguments with loved ones, I want to try and communicate that too.

I wonder how you might feel about helping me acheve that?

Models will need to be over 16 and have permission from parents if under 18. You will need to live in the UK and be avaliable for a photoshoot as soon as possiable. Models are not paid but I can help with traveling costs, offer you and a friend food/a bed for the night and you will have an opertunity to buy a copy of the book when finished if you would like.

I am needing people as quick as possiable as the project needs to finish in the next 4/5 weeks and some models backed out. That said, if you do offer, you will be under no pressure to do anything you are uncomfortable with. Even if that means you getting here and changing your mind. If you are interested I can show you some images I already have to see what you think. Feel free to pass this on to friends you think may be interested.

I hope this post isnt inapropreate, feel free to remove it. x-posted to other self harm communities.

You can leave messages here or you can e mail me at GumChewingFreak[@]Gmail[.]com

Thank you for reading, have a safe day xx xx
Feb. 2nd, 2007 @ 01:14 am
Current Location: my room
I am: tiredtired
I'm listening to: chris brown - shorty like mine
so i've been a self-harmer for the past five years now
and i've recently quit

so i've decided i need sort of tribute tattoos
on my inner forearms
something somewhat symbolic and meaningful.

anyone happen to have any ideas on what would be nice?
i would greatly appreciate any input anyone has. =)
Jan. 3rd, 2007 @ 03:51 pm Afraid.
I am: disappointeddiscouraged
I'm listening to: Three Ravens - Thomas Ravenscroft (1583)
X'd everywhere.

I'm afraid of excersising. On December 24th, I weighed 154 pounds, a fucking miracle. I haven't been that light in five years, and I've grown 9 inches since then. On the 27th... I weighed 157. Fine, fine. Yesterday I weighed 161... and today? 164.5. I know some of it is from my period: retaining water and such, but really... In one.5 weeks, I gained TEN pounds. I haven't been this heavy in two months.

I want it to stop, but I can't seem to do anything. I'm so weak, it kills me. I know that no matter how much I cut or cry, the weight won't dissapear. I have to take the proper steps, but I can't even get back to my restricting habits. It was so easy before, I'd just decide not to eat and do it. Not problem, no hesitation. 600 calories was luxury, now I can't even manage to stay below 1500!!

I have to excersise. I know I do. Marching band ended and since then, my weight loss has noticeably declined HUGELY. I just... can't. I'd join the 28-day plan, instead of lurking.. but I can't bring myself to excersise. I'm afraid of the failure, I hate it. I cannot drive myself to a gym (no license yet), even if I was a member. So my only options are walking, running, and situps/pushups. I cannot even eat in front of my mother/family, so workout videos aren't really considerable. I would run, but I have such huge issues with my mother/father seeing me go out for a jog, I burst into tears if they notice, and that always results in more cutting, which always sucks (and my asthma acts up TERRIBLY in winter air). Even walking, though... I just can't find the will to do it. Walking alone is boring... but that's no excuse.

I need to lose this weight. I want to be 120 by July 15th. Still DEFINATELY possible (if I lose 2 pounds/week, I'd get there on June 7th), but I'm just so discouraged. Excersise is a demon that I think I can't conquer, and I don't know what to do about it.
Han solo
Nov. 2nd, 2006 @ 01:26 pm Community
I am: tiredtired
While reading this community, I noticed that there are many loving and caring people who have been hurt badly in so many different ways. There are many ways that help is available, and I'm hoping that my community can ease some of your demons. 

It doesn't say in the userinfo page that I cannot do this, so here I go and I am terribly sorry if this offends anyone. And if it does, the mod can delete this entry immediately. I created a community a while ago called
attemptfailed: for people who have attempted suicide. It is not a pro- suicide community, but it is one for people to tell their stories, get advice, find people to relate to, etc. 

There is much more about it in the userinfo page, but I thought I'd give a little introduction to the community in case anyone out there is interested. Take care everyone.
Girl Interrupted
Jul. 15th, 2006 @ 11:07 pm summer
I am: indescribableindescribable
I hate the summer. I have hundreds of scars, on both my arms and wrists, my tummy, and my leg.
I have low self esteem anyway. But having to cover up in the heat makes me even more self conscious. Does anybody just bare their scars? I want to not care about people looking at me. To accept this is the way I look, and be proud of who I am. How does everybody else cope with the summer?
One Way to Nashville
Jul. 2nd, 2006 @ 06:53 pm
Sorry, but the previous link about Britney was wrong. Here is correct one...
Jan. 5th, 2006 @ 05:45 am
Hi, new here. i am a self-harmer in recovery, and haven't hurt myself in about a year. i have many nasty scars on my legs as a result of my days of self harm, and i am ready to do something to get rid of them. i have been researching different methods/treatments for scar reduction, and have found a few that sound viable.
one is called episyl. it is an ointment/capsule comination, and looks promising. i am wondering if anyone else here has heard of it or used it, or it anyone knows of any other option that has worked for them. these scars are older and keloid and there are too many for products like Mederma to be practical.
thanks so much everyone!
i hate this-flasher
Nov. 28th, 2005 @ 02:24 am im so frustrated
I am: frustratedfrustrated
I'm listening to: silence
i cant stop thinking about hurting myself
i cant stop these feelings of emptiness
i cant stop hurting people i care about
i cant stop. i just cant fucking stop!

i hate myself.
fuck off
Jul. 19th, 2005 @ 10:45 pm
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Jul. 15th, 2005 @ 04:30 pm Hi!
Hello, my name is Kate and I am what I'd call a minor repetitive self-harmer. I'm 21, live in Northern California, and I have been legally blind since birth. If you have any questions about my vision or my other birth defects, just ask, I'm very open. I've come here for support as I've begun to realize that even the minor things I do are significant and harmful to my well-being.

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I look forward to finding support and friendship here. I have MSN Messenger, so feel free to add me.